It’s been a while since I wrote an article here and I do apologise, but life has been a bit adventurous lately. However, as I lie awake at a stupid time of night with my mind racing as thoughts run through my mind, I thought that this would be the best time to write an article which means something.
When I was 15 years old, I wrote an article on this very website. The article discussed my anxiety issues and how I was trying to overcome them. I then later wrote another article around about a year later which was basically an update on my life and how I was coping with my mental health issue. Back then I always thought that I would be able to overcome this issue completely and that everyone can overcome anxiety, but now a few years later and a heck of a lot of experience of positive and negative sides to my condition, I realised that anxiety doesn’t always disappear in some cases.
I was always led to believe one day I would actually grow out of all of this. That someday I would become ‘normal’ and so year after year since my diagnosis at the age of 10 I waited patiently in hope that one day my inner demons would just suddenly disappear. I was led to believe this for many years but the older I got and the more I learnt about mental health issues, I realised that it isn’t that simple and not everyone can overcome the problem. However, from experience for almost 10 years I have learnt that you can control your anxiety. Just because there’s a problem in your life it does not mean it has to take over your entire life. It can if you let it but if you fight and keep persistent, you can gain control over your demons.
During my school days I happened to struggle a lot with my issues and there was a point in my life where I thought that I would never be able to mount to anything because of my anxiety. I didn’t know how to control anything and it took over my life to the point where I was too ill to stay in school. I was struggling so much and it destroyed every single opportunity. I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I felt as though I should just give up because I was doomed to a lifetime of suffering. I would have never have thought that I would be able to live a life where I could gain achievements and get a career or even go to university.
Luckily I had a very supportive family who were there for me in my darkest moments and hours of need where they encouraged me to get the professional help I needed. With that help and positive encouragement from my family and closest friends I managed to get some qualifications through a small group and even got my first ever job. I think what people – who suffer with anxiety – need to realise is that positivity is the key. Yes, anxiety is an issue and there will be setbacks but that doesn’t mean you have to give into it.
People tend to be afraid of asking for help and I completely sympathise with that as I felt the same, but after taking that first big step and seeking help everything became easier. I’m not saying that getting help will 100% cure you but it helps you control the issues so you can get on with life and not let the problem take over you.
Since getting help I have achieved so much that I could ever imagine. As studying in an educational environment with peers isn’t my strongest point I never thought that I could go to university but now I am a BA Honours English literature and creative writing student with the Open University. That’s proof that there is always an alternative. I also write for a pop culture website and the opportunities have been incredible. I’m basically living my dream, or at least the start of it.
I still very much have down days and even a complete period of time where I don’t feel okay but that in itself is okay as long as you take control of the problem. Because everyone has down days and that’s okay, too. It doesn’t mean I will be down forever and it doesn’t mean there won’t be a rainbow after the rain.
What I want to say to people who may be in a similar situation to me is to find a small glimpse of positiveness and hold onto it. Take a deep breath and take that first step by asking for help. I promise it will be okay even if life isn’t perfect. You can jump over hurdles and when you fall you can pick yourself up again dust yourself down and continue where you left off.
Hold on, you’re going to get through it. It’s going to be okay.
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