Over the past few months, when I’ve wanted to let something out, I’ve decided to jot all my thoughts out into a letter but not send it. I’ve decided to post them here, but I will keep the people who I’m not sending them to anonymous. So this is letter one…
D’you remember when we used to be like brother and sister? How we used to be there for each other? The days when you promised to be there for me like I was for you? Well, what do you know? Those days are gone. I thought we were going to be there for one another no matter what, but I was clearly wrong there, wasn’t I?
At first, I was upset. Really upset. I just blamed myself and I felt like everything in life that went wrong was my fault. Then… one day, I realised something. That it wasn’t my fault. It wasn’t my problem. You chose to act that way, not me. I was willing to keep the promise we’d made but obviously it was too much for you to handle because you just cared about yourself. Silly me for thinking I could trust you, eh?
I thought you should know that I’m doing fine these days. Actually, more than fine. I’m doing great! I’ve achieved so much since you’ve been gone. I’m a different girl. I’m finally me – no thanks to you, of course. I guess I owe you a thank you, though. If you hadn’t been the ignorant idiot that hurt me, I don’t think I’d be this strong these days. So, I win.
Hope you’ve grown up and that whoever else makes the mistake to trust you, they don’t get as hurt as I was.